Then she would come down without saying a word.
For four years, she did the same thing.
Go up.
Stare.
Come down.
I tried to talk to her once, maybe a year after Tommy vanished.
“Margaret, what are you looking for up there?” I asked.
She looked at me with eyes that had not slept in days.
“I’m not looking,” she said. “I’m listening.”
Then she turned and walked away, her bucket swinging empty at her side.
Until she died.
We buried Margaret yesterday at noon at the cemetery off Woodland Avenue.
I helped carry her casket.
It felt light.
Too light.
As if life had been pulling parts of her away long before she actually left.
Her sister cried out of obligation, dabbing at dry eyes with a folded tissue.
Two neighbors prayed with rosary beads wrapped around their wrinkled fingers.
The priest said something about eternal rest and the mercy of God.
And I watched the dirt fall over her.
That’s why, when my phone vibrated on the rooftop that night, I didn’t think of her.
I was hanging up a wet blanket.
I had gone up because the heat wouldn’t