My hand started to shake.
The kitchen blurred in front of my eyes.
I had not treated her the way she deserved.
Now she was gone, and there was no chance to apologize.
Peter was at school when it happened.
I had to sit him down that afternoon and tell him his mother was gone.
He didn’t scream.
He didn’t fall apart.
He just sat at the kitchen table, folded his hands in his lap, and stared at the floor.
‘She is gone?’ he asked quietly.
‘Yes,’ I said. ‘She is gone.’
He nodded slowly and whispered, ‘Okay.’
That was it.
No tears.
No questions.
No pleas.
The funeral was held four days later at Fairview Cemetery on the north side of town.
Peter wore a black suit that was too big for him.
He stood beside me at the gravesite without making a sound.
I remember the wind blowing through the maple trees, scattering orange leaves across the fresh dirt.
The pastor read from the old leather Bible, and his voice sounded far away.
Peter kept his eyes fixed on the coffin.
He did not blink.
He did not move.
I watched him out of the corner of