The door closed behind me with the firmness of a final decision.
I went to my small closet in the back bedroom.
The old suitcase was still there, covered in a thin layer of dust.
It had been my mother’s suitcase, and now it was mine.
As I opened it, I could hear the television blaring from the living room.
Some talk show was playing, and the audience was laughing.
I wanted to laugh too, because the whole thing felt so absurd.
But I couldn’t.
I packed my few belongings slowly and carefully.
I folded my nightgowns, my old sweaters, my worn socks.
I packed the small framed photograph of my late husband, Robert, that I had kept beside my bed for twelve years.
I tucked his old handkerchief into the pocket of my coat.
No one came to see me.
No one knocked on the door.
No one said, “Mom, please don’t go.”
The television just kept playing, and the audience kept laughing.
When I finished packing, I sat down on the edge of the bed and dialed a number I