I didn’t understand it then, but I felt a chill run down my spine.

I excused myself early and drove home through the snowy Boulder streets with that check burning a hole in my pocket.

In my tiny apartment, I sat on my secondhand couch and stared at the check under the light of a single lamp. I thought about my life. The divorce three years ago that had shattered my confidence. The long hours at the coffee shop and the bookkeeping job that barely covered rent. The way my family spoke to me like I was a permanent disappointment. The way Grandma had always been different with me, always asking me to sit with her, always telling me stories about her own life, about how she had been underestimated too.