But now I was too awkward to sit near a Christmas tree.

I could feel the memories pressing in on me. Two years of driving to their houses late at night with checks in my purse. Two years of showing up with groceries when Lauren claimed morning sickness made it impossible to shop. Two years of listening to Mom complain about her bridge club while I balanced my own checkbook and wondered how I was going to afford my own therapy after the divorce shattered me. They never asked how I was. They only asked what I could do for them.