I thought about the nights I had come home from the clinic with bruises on my stomach. I thought about the empty guest room that I had painted yellow for the baby we never had. I thought about the drawer full of tiny socks and hats I had bought in secret. Every single one of those memories crashed over me in that hallway. I bit my lip so hard I tasted something sharp. I would not let them hear me cry. I would not give them that satisfaction.