She yelled at me for everything. If I forgot to dust the top of the refrigerator, she would slap the back of my head with an open palm. If I left a streak on the bathroom mirror, she would pinch my arm until purple spots bloomed. Her favorite word for me was “useless.” She shouted it so often I began to believe it. But the worst days were when she talked about my mother. “Your mother was always too soft,” she would hiss, scrubbing a pot with violent strokes. “She thought she was so special, marrying that laborer. And look where it got her—dead and leaving her trash in my house.” I would bite my lip until I tasted blood because I knew if I cried, she would hit me harder. At night, lying on my mat with the cold draft from the back door chilling my feet, I would stare at the ceiling and whisper, “Mama, I miss you. Why did you have to leave me?” I imagined her voice answering, soft as a lullaby, and the tears would slide down into my ears.